dear you.


you're already a masterpiece

Beethoven never added a drumbeat to the Fur Elise



please don't paint your face, you're beautiful just the way you are. (:

left eye twitched all day today.


is that bad?

who says beggars can't be choosers?



actually sometimes when you leave it up to God, everything just...falls into place.

Just saw a TVC for Dettol hand sanitizer.


The mom was stopping her kids from touching things like shopping carts and lift buttons for fear that they would contain harmful bacteria. But after sanitizing their hands with DETTOL HAND SANITIZER, EVERYDAY OBJECTS could be touched again without fear.


gawd.


you promoting a product or you promoting paranoia?

i just found out that 3 of my primary school friends are in med school


med-fucking-school.


the same people who used to sit in the same class as me, do the same papers as me, play hopscotch, catching and monkey bars during recess with me.


We had comparable grades until the bloody streaming in P4 put them in one class above me. Why? They did higher chinese. I couldn't (actually I could have but I didn't want to kill myself, yet).

So now they are studying to be doctors (think Grey's) where daily work means saving lives and maybe even bringing life into this world.

While they're at that, I'm probably working myself to death for low pay in an industry where deception is part of my job scope and rising in ranks means putting on a fake front and pandering to the wants of those around me.

so what if I'm in one of the most sought-after courses in poly? big deal.



I'm a fucking underachiever.

if I think some bungs are hot and some gayboys are cute, does that contradict my status as a straight guy?


hmmm.

I'm sick of coming up with excuses.


I'm sick of getting the same old excuses.



I'm sick of giving myself excuses for not trying to be a better individual.



gah.



only 2 things in this world are capable of motivating me: my own anger, or my love for someone


I've nothing to motivate me right now.




Until someone pisses me off real bad.