please don't let it be what i imagine it to be.

please let me be wrong this once.


-closes eyes and holds breath-




its awfully quiet now.


my life is like my mahjong game.


i greedily aim for a big win and end up squandering all my chances.



i'm so damn greedy. i don't deserve anything.

but i just keep deluding myself again and again and again.



i don't know why i'm saying all these.

WHY?







i think.


i really should be starting on my homework.


=/