cheak, its over, so don't harp on it.


well if you are a peace-loving carebear, dont read on.



i can't help it. this spoilt my whole fucking evening.

you don't fucking tell me what i should have done.

I KNOW WHAT I SHOULD HAVE DONE.

but it didnt help that NO ONE gives a bloody fuck about what the fuck i type in my emails.
NO FUCKING ONE.

they dont read my emails, and then claim that i never said it in the first place and have the fucking cheek to fucking get angry when i fucking tell them that it was in the fucking emails.

when i fucking tell you to prepare a slide BEFORE the meeting, you do not start sourcing for info DURING THE FUCKING MEETING.

and you dont FUCKING LEAVE without finishing everything.

and even if you dont fucking do anything, at least FUCKING COME so that the others wont fucking whine about everyone not fucking being there so they cant do fucking this and fucking that.

i KNOW FUCKING WELL WHAT I SHOULD HAVE DONE. in fact, i wanted to combine the presentation ONE MEETING EARLIER, but NOOOOOOOO. people dont read my emails and only clarify with me what they are supposed to do NEARING THE FUCKING END OF THE FUCKING MEETING.

dont fucking tell me how to manage the whole team when you cant even manage your fucking section. its fucking obvious that you keep pushing work away from yourself and fucking blaming everyone else and not fucking taking responsibility.

and how do you fucking remedy that? you make it seem like im incompetent in getting things together by messing them up, then act the hero and put everything back together again. (i was in fact delayed by fuckers like you who only know how to fucking surf blogs and poke their noses into the affairs of others instead of fucking doing what the fucking ought to do)

im sorry i had class. im sorry that i was chose to leave rudely in the middle of a fucking presentation. im sorry that you are so fucking selfish. im sorry that you wanted to HAVE A FUCKING HOLIDAY instead of getting some work done. im sorry that i came to school during my holidays even before anyone heard any news about the development of the Nias trip. im sorry that i could not get to work much to support myself cos i had to fucking come to school. im fucking sorry that i am forced to exert an authoritative tone (which you fucking say is condescending) when you fucking treat me like im not there when i give instructions. im fucking sorry that i cant stand selfish fucktards like you.

im sorry i was responsible. im sorry i get pissed when people dont fucking listen. im sorry that i spend nights typing emails that get ignored anyway.

so maybe we could turn back time and let you try and get this whole fucking project off the ground on your own. and maybe i could take over your position and treat you the fucking way you treated me. MAYBE THEN YOU'LL FUCKING UNDERSTAND.

fuck you, imma hit back where it fucking hurts.